When I found out I was pregnant with Liam I was so overjoyed! I felt so blessed that I was able to get pregnant again with no complications. But I also knew that the next 9 months weren't going to be an easy road for me. I was extremely scared and worried and I did have something to be worried about. I had been robbed of all the optimism that you should have while you are pregnant. The thought of loosing a baby never enters a pregnant women's mind unless they have experienced a loss before. What should be joyous occasions can be stressful. I remember Liam's first ultrasound. I was so worried that day that I was shaking. While the tech was searching for Liam on the monitor and I didn't see anything yet I started to tear up and cry..just thinking he was dead. I felt a sigh of relief when the tech finally found him and he was okay. With Liam I haven't had time to even pre-plan this time. Instead of keeping a pregnancy journal of every milestone I'm busy writing down my gluclose levels, baby kick counts, running to the hospital with NST testing etc. I plan to keep all of that info for Liam so he can look at it one day and know how much we loved him and how much I went through. I haven't even thought this time of what I'm going to do once he arrives.. I'm just trying to get through this pregnancy first. Friends and family are so supportive. I'm thankful to have people around me that are so positive and filled of good thoughts. That definitely helps get me through the rough days. People just tell me to enjoy this pregnancy everything is going to be fine but I know they have never been through what I have in the past. You don't know unless it happens to you you'll never know what it's like. I'm so thankful Liam is doing so well. I pray everyday for a happy and healthy little man for me to carry home in my arms this time. He's loved more than he'll ever know. I just take each day at a time and do the best that I can for Liam and myself.
Jul 2, 2008
Why I decided to blog my pregnancy journey
I was happy to come across this website which will allow me to share Liam with friends and family. It's great for those who don't live close by to be able to check in and see how Liam is doing and how my pregnancy is coming along. It is also a great outlet for me to express my worries and concerns as this has been a very difficult time for me. As you may know this is my second pregnancy. Being pregnant is such a wonderful experience that I think it's so important to live and experience your baby everyday because you never know what can happen. My first son Tristan was stillborn when I was 41 weeks pregnant on February 27, 2007 due to an umbilical chord accident. My first pregnancy was such a joy! I kept journals, wrote down every mile stone, bought baby clothes, decorated the nursery etc. I kept planning and planning for his arrival I never thought I'd ever loose a baby.
When I found out I was pregnant with Liam I was so overjoyed! I felt so blessed that I was able to get pregnant again with no complications. But I also knew that the next 9 months weren't going to be an easy road for me. I was extremely scared and worried and I did have something to be worried about. I had been robbed of all the optimism that you should have while you are pregnant. The thought of loosing a baby never enters a pregnant women's mind unless they have experienced a loss before. What should be joyous occasions can be stressful. I remember Liam's first ultrasound. I was so worried that day that I was shaking. While the tech was searching for Liam on the monitor and I didn't see anything yet I started to tear up and cry..just thinking he was dead. I felt a sigh of relief when the tech finally found him and he was okay. With Liam I haven't had time to even pre-plan this time. Instead of keeping a pregnancy journal of every milestone I'm busy writing down my gluclose levels, baby kick counts, running to the hospital with NST testing etc. I plan to keep all of that info for Liam so he can look at it one day and know how much we loved him and how much I went through. I haven't even thought this time of what I'm going to do once he arrives.. I'm just trying to get through this pregnancy first. Friends and family are so supportive. I'm thankful to have people around me that are so positive and filled of good thoughts. That definitely helps get me through the rough days. People just tell me to enjoy this pregnancy everything is going to be fine but I know they have never been through what I have in the past. You don't know unless it happens to you you'll never know what it's like. I'm so thankful Liam is doing so well. I pray everyday for a happy and healthy little man for me to carry home in my arms this time. He's loved more than he'll ever know. I just take each day at a time and do the best that I can for Liam and myself.
When I found out I was pregnant with Liam I was so overjoyed! I felt so blessed that I was able to get pregnant again with no complications. But I also knew that the next 9 months weren't going to be an easy road for me. I was extremely scared and worried and I did have something to be worried about. I had been robbed of all the optimism that you should have while you are pregnant. The thought of loosing a baby never enters a pregnant women's mind unless they have experienced a loss before. What should be joyous occasions can be stressful. I remember Liam's first ultrasound. I was so worried that day that I was shaking. While the tech was searching for Liam on the monitor and I didn't see anything yet I started to tear up and cry..just thinking he was dead. I felt a sigh of relief when the tech finally found him and he was okay. With Liam I haven't had time to even pre-plan this time. Instead of keeping a pregnancy journal of every milestone I'm busy writing down my gluclose levels, baby kick counts, running to the hospital with NST testing etc. I plan to keep all of that info for Liam so he can look at it one day and know how much we loved him and how much I went through. I haven't even thought this time of what I'm going to do once he arrives.. I'm just trying to get through this pregnancy first. Friends and family are so supportive. I'm thankful to have people around me that are so positive and filled of good thoughts. That definitely helps get me through the rough days. People just tell me to enjoy this pregnancy everything is going to be fine but I know they have never been through what I have in the past. You don't know unless it happens to you you'll never know what it's like. I'm so thankful Liam is doing so well. I pray everyday for a happy and healthy little man for me to carry home in my arms this time. He's loved more than he'll ever know. I just take each day at a time and do the best that I can for Liam and myself.
